legacymaker

...But with more color. I have been horrible depressed. It seems that I have, to often, helped others out. While neglecting my own needs, much to my demise. now when the situation is flipped, no one seems to want to help. It seems that my life is hitting a dead end, and every time I find a possible way out of this hole, something stops forward progress. So I have gone to the abstract. I have delved in deeper to my artistic expression. I have started Painting. Fun oh Fun oh Fun. I feel the flood gates creativity will open and the torrent that gushes out will wipe out the town below. better let the poor bastards know so they can get out before

some times I wonder what it must be like to have a great family life. people that you can fall back on in your times of need. peopple that understand or at least care about your well being more then just at a superficial level.  Not to say that my friends lack that care, there is just this ideal in my head that family is supposed to go deeper then that. And at the times of trial it can be hard to see the compasion of your friends. On the flip side as a friend it can difficult to fully embrace a friends problems. To see his/her pain with empathy. Buried down deep in my pain I search for a warm shoulder to lay a tired head to find only more roa

I have been using my friends camera's it has been a very trying experience. I have been able to work more on my post-production, and I just started painting, which is fun as shit. I finally stop telling myself that I couldn't do it and instead started to allow myself to just do. I now know that I can do a lot more then I thought I could!!